Weight: 244 lbs.
I watched The Doctors earlier this week and Dr. Lisa Masterson discussed a topic that I have been plagued with for many years now – Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). She indicated that the insulin levels play a role in PCOS and that losing weight is the key to achieving pregnancy.
I had suspected my weight had something to do with my infertility issues. I even lost nearly 30 pounds last year, but apparently I need to lose more. I need to combine my diet and exercise to achieve a healthy weight. I also need to cut out that sugar; which builds and feeds fat cells. The sugar also messes with my hormones which contribute to my PCOS.
After my nephew was born last year, I found peace with my infertility. Combine that with the loss of my job, and I lost my motivation to continue my work for a healthy lifestyle. Dr. Lisa said that there is hope for women with PCOS and losing the excessive weight will assure a chance for pregnancy. I found my motivation, again.
The overwhelming knowledge that the one thing I have the power to control but don’t use is the very thing that is holding me back from having a child of my own. I can control what I eat. I have the power within me to say “no” to sweets. If I could physically kick myself right now, I would do it until my butt cheeks were red.
This is the reason why no egg will grow and no baby would stick around. My blood was poisoned by the immense sugar intake. I created a hostile environment where no fetus would reside.
I am making the decision and exercising my power of control today. I will no longer eat sweets that poison my veins and discourage egg growth. I will no longer crave candy bars and ice cream. I will eat the healthy foods in moderation. I will crave fruits and vegetables. I will exercise daily, and I will lose this weight; ultimately achieving a healthy pregnancy once and for all.